We will miss you

Beloved Frient

Max E. Joyner (12/28/1925 - 2/3/2011)

When I was growing up in Muncie, Indiana there were two things you could rely on every day. Max would be next door waiting for a friend to stop in and just talk to him and a nice long bike rides around the neighborhood with a close family friend.

I remember sitting on the back of his red truck while he sat in a lawn chair in his drive way. My little sister would stand behind him with a comb and brush his hair.. she would spike it up and move it from one side to another. He never cared how silly she would make him look.

Max always had a friendly dog that would run up and down the fence line with my dog Puddin. I remember looking out the window and he would be sitting there on his back porch watching them run up and down the fence. He would do one quick wave and I would be over there in seconds.

I don’t remember having much to say, and still to this day I don’t talk often. But some how Max would bring the conversation out of you. Never one to talk much himself, but he would always ask man questions to spark a good conversation, even with a child.

Every Christmas we would receive a gift of chocolates and candy from him. It was something else you could count on. All he asked for in return for his genuine kindness was a good friend in return.

He was a perfect man that wouldn’t hurt anyone. Always knew how to make you feel good.

I feel bad for not seeing him more often since moving out of the state. With every death I feel as if I should have done more, visited him more. I do not know if this is just a natural feeling or if I really just don’t do enough.

Max, you are my hero. I will miss you dearly.

His Obituary

Muncie —Max E. Joyner, 85, passed away Thursday evening, February 3, 2011, at the Golden Living Center.

He was born December 28, 1925, in Summitville, the son of Eva (Brammel) Joyner and Raymond Joyner. Max grew up in Summitville and Gaston and moved to the Muncie area in 1978. He attended school in Summitville. Max worked at Delco-Remy in Anderson for 30 years and retired in 1983. He also worked as a farmer for several years. Max enjoyed eating breakfast at the SunShine Café with friends and riding his bike around Skyway addition. Mr. Joyner was a U.S. Army veteran.

Survivors include four children, Lisa Keeley, (husband-Rick), Muncie; Scott Joyner, Culver; Jane Hudson, (husband-Jim), Anderson and Mike Thomas, Anderson; one step-daughter, Kathleen Marencik, (husband-Thomas), Crown Point; three grandchildren, Ashley Keeley; Alison Keeley and Jennifer Hudson; eight step-grandchildren and several step-great-grandchildren.

He was preceded in death by his parents; and three wives, Alice Gervae Joyner; Joan Catherine Joyner and Barbara Rosemary Joyner.

Services will be held 10:00 a.m., Monday, February 7, 2011 at The Meeks Mortuary and Crematory, Washington Street Chapel with Rev. Edsel F. Joyner officiating. Burial will follow in Vinson Cemetery at Summitville.

Family and friends may call at The Meeks Mortuary and Crematory, Washington Street Chapel from 4:00 until 6:00 p.m., Sunday or after 9:00 a.m., Monday.

Memorial contributions may be directed to Alzheimer’s Association, 50 E. 91st St., Indianapolis, IN 46240 or to Cancer Services of East Central Indiana-Little Red Door, 401 W. Jackson St., Muncie, IN 47305.

Online condolences to the family may be sent to www.meeksmortuary.com.

Source: http://obits.meeksmortuary.com/View.aspx?oID=1054&n=Max+E.+Joyner

Working from home

It seems that many people dream of the at home job. Imagine being your own boss, income being in direct relation to your work ethic and drive. Never do people think of the down sides of working from home. I know I didn’t when I first made the plunge.

Since the age of 15 I have always worked from someone else, since the age of 14 I worked in advanced web programming (beyond HTML/CSS). Web design and development was once a hobby and I had never thought it to be a full time job nor working from home and getting paid.

As I progressed in the business world, making more and more money each year, I also progressed in my programming skills. Everything seemed to be all in place until one day a friend of mine asked me to work with him in his web development business.

At first I worked on some of his clients part-time and then worked full-time at a bank. At the time he had an office and I had driven there a few times a week to work. I had seen his life, creating his own work schedule. Making good money and being his own boss. Each day he determined what he would work on, if he even had planned to work that day. As long as he finished clients by the deadline life was good.

I dreamed on the life he lived. Because of this dream, I started to hate my current job and look forward to this part-time web work. Then one day, he had mentioned that he had a plethora of work to be done, enough to keep me busy for months. The next day I quit my job.

Ever since I’ve been chasing my tail, working everyday and meeting client demand. Each month has been a race to acquire funds or finish projects in time. I gave up my old boss and steady hours for up to 8 bosses (clients) at a time and 16 – 24 hour work days. Though I am a lot happier doing a job that I love, I’ve obtained a lot more stress in my life. I know know the down sides of working for yourself. And from home (the office idea stopped when I started taking on clients for myself rather than through him).

Top 5 reasons why I dislike working on my own:

  1. Day and night I feel like I should be working. I no longer have that detachment from work. When I had left my previous jobs I no longer had thought about it. Now, even a holiday can make me feel guilty for not working.
  2. Knowing where the next paycheck will come from no long exist. I used to get a steady paycheck every two weeks. Now I have to search for work and hope they pay me a decent amount. The stress of finding money is always over my head, even when I have found plenty of work and have a fully bank account I still worry about further down the road.
  3. No more routines. I have to stay motived on my own to get work done. It’s hard to balance work and life when there is not clear cut work day. Especially when working from home where it’s so easy to be distracted by family.
  4. Sick days are a thing of the past. Now if I get ill, I lose days worked. There isn’t anyone else to take my place to finish the work. Sometimes I’ll go a few days working very sick just to get something done. Where normally I’d be in bed sleeping.
  5. Sociability, I no longer have co-workers. Meeting new people and have a place to go is gone. I now work from home and I’m limited to meeting only clients and people at late night dinners

Top 5 reasons why I love working from home:

  1. I always get a good night sleep. If I stay up too late one night, I rarely have to worry about getting up early the next day. This is only not true when I have a meeting with a client.
  2. Freedom. When a random friend comes to town, it’s not a federal case to stop working for a few hours to see them. It’s easier to drop something and work on it later as long as the deadline is met.
  3. Working in my PJs. I do less laundry getting up and working in my pajamas. It’s comfortable. Though, it’s been suggested to me that getting up and dressing for business puts me into work mode and that I’d be more productive.
  4. Easier to relieve stress. If I get stressed on a script that won’t work. I can easily just take a break, watch a movie, walk my dog, or take a nap. Sometimes it’s easier to just take a step back and clear my head to solve an issue.
  5. My income is directly in relation to my motivation and efforts. I can make as much in a year as I want. Though, it may depend on clients and demand. But I can charge what I need and I usually can find a client to fit that need. Where as before I was limited to a set budget. (it’s a good and bad thing really)

Before you think about working from home. Think about how your life will change. Think about your income and every factor that will change with day to day life. Make sure you are self motivated enough to get done each day what you need to. Or else one day you’ll be searching for a job, and take the first one you can get.

Is it always better to know the truth, even when it hurts?

I have seen members of my family and friends hide the truth to avoid hurting someone’s feelings. I’ve also seen people hiding facts about life in order to avoid preventing someone else from being let down or feel as if they are letting someone down.

Telling the truth and being honest are signs of growing up. A lot of individuals fail to realize this fact. As a child I would hide things from my parents because I was fearful of their disapproval or the fact that I knew I shouldn’t be doing it. As an adult I’m able to express and do things I one hid. I don’t have to lie to my Mother about where I’m going or where I have been. I don’t have to hide the fact that I will drink a glass of wine or a couple beers; I am an adult now and I know I’m free to make my own choices.

When my little sister does things, at the age of 20, she still hides them from my parents. I can’t quite figure it out yet. Nor can I figure out why she tells me some of the horrible things she does to boyfriends and friends. It bothers me that she won’t tell a majority of those who are closest to her the truth about what she is doing yet she expects to be treated like an adult. Telling the truth is acting like an adult, it’s standing up for what you believe in and then following through with it.

Which brings me to my next question, does it not hurt someone to lie to them even if you’re hiding the truth? When someone finds out later on about the truth will it not hurt them worse. Not only were they lied to but you also did something they may not find appropriate…. it’s like a double kick in the face.

It is better to know the truth, being lied to is never fun. Trustiness is build from the telling of the truth, and creates a strong bond.

Tell a girl her dress doesn’t make her look fat, the fact that she’s fat makes her look fat isn’t telling the truth. It’s trying to hurt someone. Telling her that the dress doesn’t look good on her is telling the truth. So there is a fine line. It’s a matter of growing up, and just knowing where the line is drawn between hurting someone and telling the truth.

Don’t lie to me, even if it’s about minimal things. This is how I lose friends. I’d rather know my haircuts sucks than to have everyone make fun of me behind my back.

One small amount of truthy hurt, can prevent a large plethora of pain.

New lease on life

I took some time today to put a plan together. A daily goal list to be completed everyday, and a list of each task completed each day along with what I will accomplish the next day.

This way I feel I will be more organized and have a better overall happiness. Organization makes me happy and I’ve let it slip past me. I’m making goals, making me a better person to me and hoping it will pay off in the end.

I’m dedicated amounts of time to accomplish certain task, measuring how long I work on them. Reviewing and comparing what was planned to what was completed. Finishing task and goals make me happy. Having a short term plan makes me happy.

I hope I stick to it.

When I realized I’m an adult

Today, I realized that I’m an adult. At the age of 23, I now feel like I should be moving forward in life. I’ve been living as an adult for quite some time now, but I refused to mentally move forward. I started a business on the internet. I’m in business for myself and I just now realized what is really going on.

I spend day an night creating and designing websites for others; until today I was simply just programming, like how an artist creates a painting. Never did I stop and realize I am creating the income of several people. The websites I create and getting paid to make will be seen by an unknown number of people and will actually make some money, it’s not just a website to my clients. I am a business, I am designing a means of income for people! I mean, why else would they pay me to create these things.

It was a strange feeling to realize what I am actually doing. I started in this business as a hobby. Created several sites just for fun and for friends. Then, through a long list of happenings I started getting hired to do jobs for clients. I never stopped to consider the fact that I’m making business websites. Just a strange thought to be somewhat important.

Which brings me to my next thought. Where do I go from here? Now that I know that I have responsibilities and a need to move forward in life, it’s getting to the point where I’m getting a lot more work than I can handle on my own. Projects are starting to take longer and longer to complete to make all of my clients happy. I am not longer doing this for fun anymore, it’s simply my income rather than a hobby. I either need to expand with the growing demand of my services or get out of the game. I don’t know where to go next. I’m so used to just going with the flow and making quick for the moment decisions, there have been very few decisions in my life where I had to think long term.

So what do I do? Hire people to help me and work my self out of the programming aspect and become a manger, or continue to do what I’m doing now and never move forward in my career / grow up for that matter. I know it is time to grow up, I just wish I knew the next step.

I’m too busy working in my business to be working on it. I’m an adult now, and I feel as if I should know what to do. When I was little I saw my Dad make life changing decisions in an instant. Like he just knows what to do, very little thought… he just knows what is the right path.

Then again, life is too long to always be right. And too short to not take risk.

Enjoyment in life

A majority of my time from sunrise to sunset is spent working. There is very little time in between that I am doing much of anything for myself. I’ve realized this yesterday during Thanksgiving with my family.

While waiting to eat and the time thereafter, I felt uneasy because I was not busy checking my email or working on one of the hundreds of task to be completed for my clients – of which they wanted completed yesterday. I didn’t like this feeling, not just because I felt uneasy, but I had thought I wasn’t able to have the time to enjoy myself.

I’ve pondered in the past of this issue; however, I’m yet to come up with a solution. I still haven’t either. I cannot just quit working for my clients because I must be paid and their sites must be completed. If I take more time for myself I’ll take longer to complete their task. It’s a vicious cycle I have hopes of removing myself from.

One day I will. I hope it comes soon. Back to work I go.