Today, I realized that I’m an adult. At the age of 23, I now feel like I should be moving forward in life. I’ve been living as an adult for quite some time now, but I refused to mentally move forward. I started a business on the internet. I’m in business for myself and I just now realized what is really going on.

I spend day an night creating and designing websites for others; until today I was simply just programming, like how an artist creates a painting. Never did I stop and realize I am creating the income of several people. The websites I create and getting paid to make will be seen by an unknown number of people and will actually make some money, it’s not just a website to my clients. I am a business, I am designing a means of income for people! I mean, why else would they pay me to create these things.

It was a strange feeling to realize what I am actually doing. I started in this business as a hobby. Created several sites just for fun and for friends. Then, through a long list of happenings I started getting hired to do jobs for clients. I never stopped to consider the fact that I’m making business websites. Just a strange thought to be somewhat important.

Which brings me to my next thought. Where do I go from here? Now that I know that I have responsibilities and a need to move forward in life, it’s getting to the point where I’m getting a lot more work than I can handle on my own. Projects are starting to take longer and longer to complete to make all of my clients happy. I am not longer doing this for fun anymore, it’s simply my income rather than a hobby. I either need to expand with the growing demand of my services or get out of the game. I don’t know where to go next. I’m so used to just going with the flow and making quick for the moment decisions, there have been very few decisions in my life where I had to think long term.

So what do I do? Hire people to help me and work my self out of the programming aspect and become a manger, or continue to do what I’m doing now and never move forward in my career / grow up for that matter. I know it is time to grow up, I just wish I knew the next step.

I’m too busy working in my business to be working on it. I’m an adult now, and I feel as if I should know what to do. When I was little I saw my Dad make life changing decisions in an instant. Like he just knows what to do, very little thought… he just knows what is the right path.

Then again, life is too long to always be right. And too short to not take risk.